you told me that after all these years, you still think of him constantly.

that there will always be a piece of your heart that belongs to him.
you also said that there will always be hope that one day, fate will bring you two together once again.

even if it is not in this life, in the next one maybe.

how did he hurt you so bad?

why can't you let him go after all this time?

why won't you let your heart heal?

and you said it is because he gave you reason to be where you are now.

although that time long ago things were still too idealistic, he was the one who first set you on this path.

now that you have reached your destination, where is he?

he is not here.

only remnants of him are.

memories.

reminders.

i think you know deep inside that you've lost him forever.

your heart doesn't always tell you the right thing.

but when you have to stop listening to your heart, who do you listen to?


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I finally got myself a table to put my laptop and sorted out my photos this morning. Wanted to post them up on Facebook or something but I seriously don't know where to start! Shall I start from where I left off? But then I can't really remember those events thanks to my goldfish memory which means I have to do loads of 'homework'. Stress betul!!! 

Just thought I'd put up some photos of the recent convocation.


Finally, even with my gold fish memory, unspeakable laziness and my inability to grow up despite being 23, I am able to graduate as a pharmacist. But I have no guarantee that your life will be safe in my hands


The flowers from my 2nd aunt and teddy bear from ShittyNee's mum.

Took those photos while waiting for the never ending speeches to end.

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Anyway, went to buy loads of fishes this evening. Believe it or not I have 1 aquarium of tiger fish, 1 aquarium of a couple of zebrafish, 1 aquarium of another kind of stripe fish where the bigger one keeps bullying the smaller one till the smaller one has to hide all the time (!!!), 1 pond of carp/koi fish and 4 pots of guppies. Wait, and there's one more small plastic aquarium to breed the baby guppies so the adults won't eat them. OMG, that means I have 9 containers of fish! No wonder mum's so tired taking care of them! lol

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SMSed Irritating Specimen that I was in KL on Thursday and she called me the next day because according to her and Mega Mama, 'working people sleep very early wan'. Anyway the first thing Irritating Specimen said screamed was,"Wah come back on Monday and now only tell me la!!! Now I know how much I mean to you!!" Wah, sorrylahhh...had things to settle kkk... Irritating Specimen, Mega Mama and I managed to meet up in 1 Utama on Friday night (took 2.5 freaking long hours to reach 1U from Bukit Jalil) for some Japanese food and a lot of camwhoring.


Mega Mama, Irritating Specimen and Jocelyn Hoh (the only one with a normal name lol). How I miss our days in Penang.

Will be going down to KL again day after tomorrow to teman sis apply for her visa.
Since ShittyNee doesn't wanna meet me cause she coughcoughbusycoughcough I shall meet up with people who appreciate me more

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There really are so many people that I haven't met yet.
I really miss you guys...